Bismillah....

sy rase terpanggil untuk mmbuat 1 entry apabila terbace komen ustaz sy di Intersaber dulu :

Apa yang dah berlalu tu tak mungkin berundur kembali. Jadikan panduan dan teruskan perjuangan. Bukan jauh sangat.. datang2 lah selalu ziarah kami di Intesaber tu. Coach basketball pun masih belum ada lagi. boleh hanis ambik alih nanti he.he Jaga maruah diri baik2 di luar sana, jaga agama moga trus berjaya dunia akhirat

sungguh!!!!!, sy rase terharu dengan komen ini. hampir menitik air mate rasenyer... entah la... mungkin sy dah lame mninggalkan sekolah... betol kate ustaz, hidup di dunia luar pasti lebih mencabar... baru sekarang saya sedar, semakin menginjak usia kita, mangkin banyak tangungjawab agama yang dipikul.. jadi, entry ini adalh satu bentuk peringatan kepada diri sendiri agar sentiasa menjaga maruah diri dan agama... sungguh ya Tuhan, peringatan mu itu jelas dan menyentuh.. kepada Ustaz Amir, sesungguhnya, jasa dan budi ustaz sy kenang hingge ke akhir hayat... Jazakumullahu Khairan Kathira :'(

Latest Update~

Salam alaik~

i seemed to be dead recently... this blog has been left out for sometimes.. act,, sy sgt bz dok kat kms... bz blaja, bz wat assgment, bz persiapkan diri dengan ilmu2 agama... maklumlah, sebagai khalifah, kita sebenarnya mmpunyai lebih byk tggungjwb berbanding masa yang ada...

Ramadhan kareem pd tahun ini, sy smbut dgn penuh kesyukuran kerana msih diberi umur oleh Dia untuk menambah amal soleh... sebagai pelaja IB, sy mngaku mmpunyai byk sgt komitmen & tggungjawab... smpi terkadang ader persoalan yg menjengah mngape ak terpilih mnjadi pelajar IB? itulah perancgn terbaik Dia untuk sy...redha la kerana sy yakin ini adalah yg terbaik......

Bermacam dugaan dtg slame sy berada d sni... kdg2 rase xtertanggung... ttp yakinlah ad rahmat di sebalik setiap ujian.. ap lg yg hendak kita runguntkan?? sedangkan kita sedar hakikat hidup sebagai seorang hamba... kadang2 rasa terseksa dengan asakan perasan yang menggila... tuhan la tmpt kita bersandar segala harapan bg menenangkan kembali diri ini.....

sabarlah hati menngung perasaan yg sememangnya fitrah...sungguh itu semuanya kurniaan Ilahi... yakinlah Dia pasti mmbantumu jika kamu terus berharap untuk berada dlm perlindunganNYa~ moge Ramadhan ini menjadi stepping stone untuk sy dan kwn2 utk berubah mnjadi lebih baik dr semalam~ Amin~

PeNGaKuan Berani Mati LOrH !!!!!

Salam alaik..

a very pleasant morning with the shining clouds, chirping birds, and greeny trees stood straight infront of my college.
i woke up at 10. like the other Sunday, i felt very lazy to get out of bed...so, i just lie and look up straight on the ceiling
thinking how's miserable was i in these couple days...then, i look at my fren beside my bed..how's good to sleep in such peace world....
so, i get up and went to the bathroom..need to do my hygien thingy..so, i just brush my teeth, wash my face...my stomach started to make grumpy sounds..
ignorance...thats i did...then i planned some activities instead of loitering around wasting time....

i though something,, i reminisced about my ex-bf...how fool was i to fall for that guy...with all the annoying scowl, grouses, fights, still, we managed to stay
for 4 years..here, i revealed one of my experience that usually i wont share with others...he's 19...a year older than me...that make him more mature in
some aspect of life..he thought me a lot..in other word, he control my life...he's a KING control...i felt a my life waS CONSTRAINED BY HIM...i did not stand
a chance to try new things...but its okay,..there were some benefits for that....

life in a place with a great tranquility, made him as a real conservative man...he refused to let me join softball tournament...and guess what, he made me promised
not to join the tournament.....as for me, softball is the zeal of my life...so, i still join and take the risk to face his tantrums...then,..as expected
he found out and i managed to endure his tantrums....this conservative man, really hard to coop with...he eventually will scold me for
some silly mistakes....but it was a common thing for me...then, of course i will woo him with flowery words, and he would cool down then...

so, that's why we last for long..its like a great combination...he needs my flowery words...i also need him to guide me...so, it's like chemistry bond that
cannot easily broke..of course we argued a lot...but still, there were something that hold us together...i was very fond of his husky voice... seyesly....i always crave for that voice.....

Enough about the past....for now.. he is my best buddy....and i will never go beyond that coz i know i will fall for him again..... hahaha.....ermm.... this is quite not my really self coz i will never ever reveal my heart to public.....but here it is.....another part of myself..

and for HIM...., i would like to say bez fren 4 ever....stop rite there and never go beyond that line..... ok..that's it for now...nite

The Future Healers..

The future healers~ glad to know im one of them~ but do you know how much the burden im undergoing now?? better dont ask for it.... To be a doctor is not as simple as i though before... being one of the student that being sponsored by MARA is a bless.... I am not compalining about anything... but it just a spill of my thoughts~ can i voice out it ??? do you willing to hear it??

doing a foundation in medic is brilliant~ bt to be chosen as an IB student is not-so-great thing to be proud of.... since i tokk this course, my life have changed 360 degree~ from a lazy creature to a better person... from a copycat student, to an independent one.. it is a good changes but i am the one whos willing to do the sacrifice~...da~~~~~~~~~

in this entry, i will put emphasis on my classmate... who are doctor-to-be too... and not to be forgotten the dentist-to-be... my class consist of 13 girls and only 7 boys.. a great ratio rite?? to prove that the boys are going to extinct..... huhuhu~ but still,, we did enjoy the condition of our class....the best thing about my class is that we have a very good dynamics in term of communicating with each other,..isn't that great??? many of student from other class envy of our class...but sometimes our class really overreacted~ we get along very well without any feeling attachment~ that's the best part.. but of course,, there are some wild gossip to spice up our life...we are very fond of matching people in our class...

here are some info u might want to know about my classmate... its boring but just read it..in case you admired one of them... so, you could see the true colour of these people.... HANA-the genius one, ALYAA-the 'hardworking' girl, WAN ALIA-the exaggerate one, IJAT-my ex-schoolmate, KIDIN-the real hardworking person, NAWI-the emotionless guy, ABZ-the PRESIDENT, FATAU-the lefty girl, DOLLY-the courteous one, ODAH-the questioning girl, NOBID-the conan-like-boy, DINI AFIQ-the pretend-to-be-nice boy, DINI- the genius, AZHAR-the tallest one, QILA-the rock girl, TIEHA-the only qelantanese, SYAHIR-the YB-to-be, HAKIM-the serious guy, BELA-the unique one...For me,, HANIS..in the most common one~ hahahah~ soory guys for describing you all this way...just for fun to publish your names in my blog..hahaha..

In my room, there are ADANI and DOYANG... they are cool except for adoni that always fooling around... stealing my bolster,, keep on teasing me...keep on gossiping....but DOYANG and me always colaborate together to bring down adani down.. serve her right..she deserve it... whatsoever.. enough for now..i need to take my shower.... see u soon~ one more thing...credit to ADANI for allowing me to use her lappy~ p/s: she's the one who make me to write her name here) hahahahah~

memory TeRIndaH

sekarang, jam menunjukkan pukul 8.41 malam..aq bawu je balik dr umah orphanage.. ader kje amal skit~

tetiba ak bukak fb,, terbace komen kawan2 lame (http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1217902429#!/photo.php?fbid=1136893827489&set=t.1217902429&pid=30399408&id=1381655217) ...rindu mengcengkam jiwa, perit rasenyer berpisah ngan kawan2..apekan daya..segalanyer telah tersurat di ats sane~

1st of all, nk cerita sal wakru spm dulu... time tuh adelah saat paling tension dalam hidup aq... mane taknyer,, ak ni bkn pndaii cm org lain....kne la study hard skit..tp seriously, time tu ak dah give up awl...ak mang tak pernah arap pon nk dpt stret A... tp Alhamdullilah semunyer rezki.... time tuh, ak dom ngn dak2 gile intersaber, CAH, BIK, DEEN, RABEQ MAMBO, n all.... SAADAH, WAJIK, JANNAH tuh baik r...LAWAK GLER...antare kegiatan kami adelah...pose gmbar2 porno CAH~ mengutip haiwan di ats kepale manusie, MELANTAK MEE MAGGI, buburr MSG, dan all the junk food avalaible in this universe.....ceh~ bapak best~ ak melantak meggi...meggi menjadi makann ruji kami , bebudak dom~

selain tuh, kami juga menlantak makanan kiriman mak BIK, every weekk,, msti mak bik anta mknan..sedap2 lakk tuhh....seseungguhnya, sy amat mnyanyangi mak bik...mcm mak sy sendri... ader juga peristiwa kurang bermoral yg berlaku dlm dom tuh apabila BIK N CAH laki bini bergaduh gare2 haiwan atas kepale......akhirnya, tggal beberape hari exam, cah manje mgambil keputusan untuk berpindah rumah~.... slain tuh... ak juga mnjadi org yg pling lewat ke surau..ini adelah perbuatan buruk yg amat ditegah di intersaber....

ketahuilah wahai raka2 ku, ak juga berase amat bersalh kerana waktu azan bwu dtg ke surau... tapi tak tahu mgape syaitan suke sgt mggu org lemah seperti ku,, D**N, Ma*B*, and C**,B*k..(maaf name2 mereka terpakse di 'sensored' kan demi mnjaga name baik).....aq juga teringat dgn perjumpaan yang dilakukan sebelom SPM...ak tak tahu la npe batch ak semakin mnjadi jht apabila spm semakin mghampiri....di sini, ak cube meletakkn 1 hipotesis, "semakin dekat dengan spm, semakin byk ragam budak batch aq"....

kepada patners in crime ak, CAH, AUFA, BIK, DEEN, MAMBO~,,,sesungguhnyer ak amat merindui kamu semua,,,.... SAADAH LAK,,, anis sgt rindu kan lawak2 basii SAADAH...kpd, ex-awek tersayang, WAJI'...sorry we didn't work out~..huhu....kepada, WIRSEYH,, huhu....sorry la selalu jadi mangse buli aq..semoge berbahagie di samping abg MAN beca....kepada dak2 kelaz ak,, baik laki mahupon pompuan...,,, maafkan aq andai kehadiran ak dalam kelaz memeritkan telinga korg.... kepada RABEQ,,, jadilah pecinta haiwan yg sejati.....

sekarang nk citer sal future lak,, asyek mngenang jew,, bile kite nk merncang lak??? lau aq ader gaji t, ak nk belikan CAH-seluar tido yg bawu n LONGGAR, AUFA-PGGARU IDUNG BILE KO ALLERGIC, bik-RACUN PEMBUNUH ORG ASLI, DEEN-sebakul kopok leko....MAMBO-pengering rmbot, SAAADAH-anis nk belikan REMY ISHAK,, waji'-anis nk belikan bubur....(jgn merajok lg k???) WIRSEYH-anis nk belikan alat aerobik.....

kepada dak2 sofbol lak,,, ak sangat gian nk amen skunk nih..rase nk THROW sumer brg yg ader dpn mate~ rase nk CATCH sumer lalat n nyamuk yg wujud~ rase nk PITCH sesanagt~~ rase nk SLIDE everytime dlm toilet... I LOVE SOFTBall with all my heart...LAO SHI, SYIRA, MADIHA, YANI, UMI, SAFINA, ~and other teamates..., i LOVE u till da last of my breath!!!!....

RAMIZAHHH~~~~ ak juga rindu lawak2 ko....hhuuhuhu~ puteri romzy~~~~~....

grouses~

salam alaik..

here i come again..updating this blog.i happened to be dead 4 some time..i just enrolled to a college name KMS~ far away in Seremban....finally....i left my hometown, my state....
so, here. i got thousand of experience, knowledge, and of course tiresome life...

i'll try really hard to coop with the daunting daily life....what a newly, different life i experienced~ hoho~ i wont complain anymore because it will never end....so, here is a piece of thingy about KMS... located at the center of Negeri 9, the place is really awsome.. alot of shopping mall, recreational parks, cars, and etc....i feel like outing every day...with all the accommodation here, i should say im grateful to be a student here...

so...im quite frustrated for some time...as i just recently knew, that the country that i'm going to...is JUST ON PAPER...what the hell???????????so the only choice i had is INDIA...im not being too fussy or whatsoever...but, this ib program worth more than that!!..so, its so i feel cheated!! to comfort myself, i take it in the positive way...maybe, it the best 4 me...im not going to turn back!!!

enough about that,..no more comments, explanations or even descriptions about my feeling at that time....so, just enjoy!!!!!!!.... and every single senior who's doing IB, would say these....tough, hard, difficult, frustrated,daunting,grueling and the worst phrase is..."welcome to HELL"....i got nervous breakdown~ and im lost~~~~~~~~~~~~

so i started my class already and im doing pretty good...i really hope to do ENGLISH HL..because i know MATHs gonna kill me silently....i hate MATHs.....please God,allow me to do English HL!!!!!!!!!

The Best slot~ CEREKARAMA

last night, i watch my favorite slot in tv3...cerekarama...showing reality life nowadays,,it broaden my mind and enhance my knowledge....that's why its beneficial...so last night, it came in conjunction of father's day, it's so touching....Rosyam Nor really play his roll very well...and guess what?? i watched it with my dad...that's make it more special...the stupid concert drag the cerekarama slot later...it make me really pissed off!!! what a stupid concert??!! @#@*$!!!!

more about my dad...he's the best dad i guess...even he's quite hot tempered,,..but still he's very generous...i reminisced when i was a wee kid,, i once though to commit suicide when got scolded by him...what a ridiculous?? sometimes i had mentally destructive and emotionally explosive...,,when my dad throw his tantrums...sometimes i got so stressed... hahaha...but guess what?? it happen definitely when i did wrongs...he tried to teach me right from wrong... when i was in standard one, i answer this question.....

The question sounds this:

Ayah saya seorang _________

Then, i honestly answer Garang.....

What the hell??? everyone in my class answer it this way,, baik hati, peramah, kacak.....and whatsoever,,,,...poor my dad...how come he has a horrible daughter like me??? my dad is one of the best man in the world..he inspire me a lot...he'

s very dedicated and responsible man...he always put emphasis on his children' studies... he also very well in his job...his competence in being a dad is completely unquestionable... im not boasting around...but these come honestly deep d

own here in my heart.....he's my idol and always be....

as im the only daughter, i can say im he apple of his eye... he always give me what i want...what a bless??? even though he knows im the laziest person ever exist in this universe....he's completely different from me...he's a diligent man that work hard everyday to earn a living for our family...

it's a blatant of the best man...i give him my bestowal.. salute him!!!...for helping my mum do the household chores too....

so, in conjunction of this special father's day, im giving the greatest

appreciation to my beloved dad...Mohd Hanafiah Hasan...thanks 4 being there 4 me...whenever i need you...sorry because i cant prepare anything 4 u....

my dad also knows im not a great cooker..he always complains my meals....what a grouse to have a daughter like me?? haha...he's a bit choosy in his food..unlike me....he doesn't eat whatever served in front of him...haha...what a contra?? as an ample example,, he love a very very dried fried fish....so that he can chew all over it...that the most thing he loved...

being with him also made me rush all over the way....he's very quick..just like the superhero The Flash...so, i never

had time to do the make up and whatsoever...so im growing with that kind of discipline...sometimes i be much clumsy and rush all over the way..,,when im with my friends...wow...he gave me a strong influence!!!