grouses~

salam alaik..

here i come again..updating this blog.i happened to be dead 4 some time..i just enrolled to a college name KMS~ far away in Seremban....finally....i left my hometown, my state....
so, here. i got thousand of experience, knowledge, and of course tiresome life...

i'll try really hard to coop with the daunting daily life....what a newly, different life i experienced~ hoho~ i wont complain anymore because it will never end....so, here is a piece of thingy about KMS... located at the center of Negeri 9, the place is really awsome.. alot of shopping mall, recreational parks, cars, and etc....i feel like outing every day...with all the accommodation here, i should say im grateful to be a student here...

so...im quite frustrated for some time...as i just recently knew, that the country that i'm going to...is JUST ON PAPER...what the hell???????????so the only choice i had is INDIA...im not being too fussy or whatsoever...but, this ib program worth more than that!!..so, its so i feel cheated!! to comfort myself, i take it in the positive way...maybe, it the best 4 me...im not going to turn back!!!

enough about that,..no more comments, explanations or even descriptions about my feeling at that time....so, just enjoy!!!!!!!.... and every single senior who's doing IB, would say these....tough, hard, difficult, frustrated,daunting,grueling and the worst phrase is..."welcome to HELL"....i got nervous breakdown~ and im lost~~~~~~~~~~~~

so i started my class already and im doing pretty good...i really hope to do ENGLISH HL..because i know MATHs gonna kill me silently....i hate MATHs.....please God,allow me to do English HL!!!!!!!!!

The Best slot~ CEREKARAMA

last night, i watch my favorite slot in tv3...cerekarama...showing reality life nowadays,,it broaden my mind and enhance my knowledge....that's why its beneficial...so last night, it came in conjunction of father's day, it's so touching....Rosyam Nor really play his roll very well...and guess what?? i watched it with my dad...that's make it more special...the stupid concert drag the cerekarama slot later...it make me really pissed off!!! what a stupid concert??!! @#@*$!!!!

more about my dad...he's the best dad i guess...even he's quite hot tempered,,..but still he's very generous...i reminisced when i was a wee kid,, i once though to commit suicide when got scolded by him...what a ridiculous?? sometimes i had mentally destructive and emotionally explosive...,,when my dad throw his tantrums...sometimes i got so stressed... hahaha...but guess what?? it happen definitely when i did wrongs...he tried to teach me right from wrong... when i was in standard one, i answer this question.....

The question sounds this:

Ayah saya seorang _________

Then, i honestly answer Garang.....

What the hell??? everyone in my class answer it this way,, baik hati, peramah, kacak.....and whatsoever,,,,...poor my dad...how come he has a horrible daughter like me??? my dad is one of the best man in the world..he inspire me a lot...he'

s very dedicated and responsible man...he always put emphasis on his children' studies... he also very well in his job...his competence in being a dad is completely unquestionable... im not boasting around...but these come honestly deep d

own here in my heart.....he's my idol and always be....

as im the only daughter, i can say im he apple of his eye... he always give me what i want...what a bless??? even though he knows im the laziest person ever exist in this universe....he's completely different from me...he's a diligent man that work hard everyday to earn a living for our family...

it's a blatant of the best man...i give him my bestowal.. salute him!!!...for helping my mum do the household chores too....

so, in conjunction of this special father's day, im giving the greatest

appreciation to my beloved dad...Mohd Hanafiah Hasan...thanks 4 being there 4 me...whenever i need you...sorry because i cant prepare anything 4 u....

my dad also knows im not a great cooker..he always complains my meals....what a grouse to have a daughter like me?? haha...he's a bit choosy in his food..unlike me....he doesn't eat whatever served in front of him...haha...what a contra?? as an ample example,, he love a very very dried fried fish....so that he can chew all over it...that the most thing he loved...

being with him also made me rush all over the way....he's very quick..just like the superhero The Flash...so, i never

had time to do the make up and whatsoever...so im growing with that kind of discipline...sometimes i be much clumsy and rush all over the way..,,when im with my friends...wow...he gave me a strong influence!!!

my favorite one....

to talk about my favorite thing is a piece of cake...just grab some ideas in spill them off...what a bless?? thinking how time have drift me into this modernization make me sick...how can i be such a person who obsess in something beneficialness??....*sigh*

FAHRIN AHMAD...a block of letter arranged smartly and toughly...phew...one of the most popular man in Malaysia...sometime popular with his credibility....or notorious thingy.... he's so elegant and mature... unfortunately..still cannot find his spouse...what a waste??

maybe he's still in his journey finding the right one for him... cannot just hitch someone to be his spouse...

wow!! his face..awesome!!! voila..almost perfect for me....how about you all?? maybe u got different opinion about him??? who cares?? i mean we should have different one...because we all human... maybe my story just a bit extravagant here..... his eyes is staring on you all...feel lucky haa???? hell yeah!!

instead of being an artist, he also a brilliant man...well educated man... so, that's why i think he is one of the best actor ever exist... well my ex once said he hates this guy...what a pathetic... maybe he's jealous to this man..who cares?? as long as im happy, i never believe the bad rumors about Fahrin...

huh~ this guy can be one of my inspiration...isn't that good?? hahaha..not good at all i guess... let it be...let the time decide when i will stop admiring him... maybe after he's married...who knows?? still, he used to be my idol b4??...*yawn* what a typical thing... boring and stupid...!! i shouldn't watch too much movies.....here it comes..more craps....

so, to all my friends..here is my Fahrin...don't be jealous...for my friend Saadah...keep on admiring that Rahimi Ishak!! haha...what the hell???? i'll stick to this one...

~bullocks~

My life has been miserable 4 quite a long time..thinking about how im gonna face the future...to pursue my study in medical is not as easy as i though... now im going to take IB program for 2 years as the foundation b4 going any further...*sigh*..

so now, im focusing myself into this...no matterhow worse the obstacle, i promise i wont give up even for seconds...i wont succumb to the situation.....from the day i decided to reject the Egypt's offer, some kind of guilty feel overwhelmed me...so, to make myself please..., this is it....!!! no turning back!!!

*zestful*

somewhere, i found KMS profile in FB...what a bless...all of the members are the future students..just like me...wow! never though about this b4....they all seem to be nice and warm...they already discussing about what kind of class, lifestyle,atmosphere and etc...that we all will be facing in KMS... awesome!! superb..that the best word i can describe them...somehow, it make me shivering....am i afraid??? hell yeah!! darn!!

im super duper anxious about futhuring my studies...can i still use my brain...?? my ability may also atrophied due to too much MSG consumed in my meal...i ate thousand of maggi, instant food for these 6 months!! i would guarantee my brain stuck!! clogged with MSG!! i n

eed kismis a.s.a.p.....

what the hell im sayaing about...all grumpy complaints wont bring me any further...what a relief~...*yawn*...erm....all these craps wont take me to the top..so stop all the grouses.. thing positive...if u want something, work 4 it...! never stop to turn back....never stop your toil here... you can achieve this,,(Dr. Hanis) maybe within 8 years...so, stop those complains and start your toil!!! haah..here it comes...daydreaming again~ what the hell im saying about?? it never ever will be just some kind of daydreaming...it's a reality!!!

what the hell im arguing with myself??? part of me,, deep down here, have a great confidence in this..i should trust it!!!!!

My only lovely lil brO....

Salam...

This time i'm going to talk about my only lil bro...starting from his birthday,, the special, devastating day when i got to know im going to have an 'adik'..i was 6 at that time.. i never thinking about having an adik...i though im going to be the 'bongsu' one...

.........but its okay...since im the only daughter..im waiting with much anticipation so that the baby will be a girl....unfortunately, it was a boy...i got a lil' bro!! hazwan.....

.

a boy or a girl???

That's him!! that little cute, lovely fellow~

....what a spoil son!! hes so cute right?? that's why..he's taking advantage on it....everyone love him tenderly...what a bless..to be like him...he's the apple of my mum's eye...he got too pampered...never had to do household chores or else....everything he achieve must be paid....he got all what he wants....

i'm not writing this because of my envious...but it's all true...at tender age of 9, he already got W380i Sony Ericsson hand phone...what the hell??? he's totally a jerk... my mum always give him more than iany of my siblings can get...sometimes, i cannot face the fact...maybe, hes close to my mum because all of my sibling have gone to hostel...he's home alone....so he got everything he wants...the PS1, PS2, PSP, Apple iPod and one more Sony Ericsson hand phone...what the hell???

he's only a kid...what the uses all of that kind of gadgets???

One more thing about him....he's damn lazy boy....when it comes to school, study, homework, mengaji......he got a lot of tricks to skip....since in standard 1, he always plying truant...especially 'skolah agama'....sometime he even cheat my mum...

adik: mak, macamane nak pegi skola agama, sampin takde!!!

mak: ade la....cube tgk kat almari tuh...

.............then my mum come to search for it...she hunt high and low for it...but the sampin is not there....where the hell of that sampin....pity on my mum....she think maybe some kind of hantu or what had stolen the sampin...but actually the truth is..my witty lil' bro hide the sampin....b***S**t!!! how can he do that??how clever he was???? his competence in cheating is unquestionable....

When it comes to something that he wants, he'll crave for it...he would throw his tantrums till he get it...That what make me scowl him...hate him..and always quarrel with him...but sometimes i enjoy his quirky acts....when we seriously quarrel it will cause definitely horrendous effects...

When he achieve something to be considered as good in his exam, he will ask for presents.... nothing he do for the sake of himself....when my mum getting boring and not fulfilling his wish, he will say....

adik: yela adik ni bodoh,...

mak: nape ckp cmtuh??

adik:asyik kene tipu jew..mak jnji, tapi tak nak tunaikan...

......gulp!! mouth agape!!! what the hell is he saying about...???? so, instead of hearing his craps sayings...my mum prefer fulfilling his wishes.... my mum dont want to see his forlorn figure....

But instead of all these flaws,, i still love him...he's the zeal of my life....one of the my beloved one....

My ambition...

"i dont have special talent but i am PASSIONATELY curious"-Albert Einstein- This quote best describe me about my passion into medicine field. why i choose this kind or hard,tough and restless job?? here i would like to explain why..why..and why..???

1. people may think a professional occupation like this may bring a lot of money to us..but for me, money does not really the matter..

kaching~kaching~kaching!!! $$$$

...........but for me..this is some kind of a noble job that has to be occupied by the Muslim...in novel 'Denyut Kasih Medik', the author says if we, the Muslim, do not take care about the sensitivity of the Muslim patient, who will be responsible for the important job?? so, as a capable Muslim, i feel the responsibility is on me.

2. Popularity....people must think this factor is one of it...people will give a great bestowal to a doctor. no matter what, when it comes to DR. everyone may think this person must be genius, successful, intelligent, smart, and of course great!!!

..........i deny this statement vehemently.. popularity is not what i aiming for....but the bless of Him... to be there for the poor and needy is a great thing... to be there for the people in rural areas is a noble thing. to lessen the burden of someone is tremendously nice....

so, ape aq nk kate kat sini...jd doctor, memang perit... aq taw sgale macam beratnyer tugas doctor....tapi...since it has been my ambition since i am an infant, aq stiil akn teroskan perjuangan aq... to all the readers, please pray for me..may Allah let my dream become a reality...

What is the meaning of being a Muslim...?

Salam...

may Allah bless you all 4 reading this this post...

Being Muslim in the aspect of belief...this is the first and the most important of being a muslim...

The admittance of someone to accept the existence of Allah in his belief is a must for someone to be a Muslim. That is why a newbie a.k.a Mualaf need to recite the Syahadah first to convert into the greatest Islam..so, as a Muslim, do we know what is this actually means to us??

1. we need to believe that Allah is the greatest creator that create this wonderful, beautiful and perfect universe. He doesnt need any help from us or else. one element of this universe need each other to function well. if one unit fail to function, then there would be a horrendous effects. isn't it so great???

"Sekiranya ada di langit dan di bumi Tuhan-tuhan selain Allah tentu keduanya itu telah rosak binasa, maka maha suci Allah yang mempunyai arasy daripada apa yang mereka yang mereka sifatkan" (Al-Anbiya')

2. we need to believe that the creation of us in this world is aiming for something. it is not a vain or aimless.so, let's us find what is the real purpose of our life??

the Holy Al Quran will guide us....

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3. we need to believe the messengers and the prophets was sent to teach the people to know Him better and understand what is the real purpose of life....and to let we know where is the end of our life..

plus, we need to believe The Prophet of Muhammad is the last messenger and he was granted with the Holy Al-Quran as a 'mikjizat' for eternity....

This is only a piece of elaborations. i am still reading the a book entitle 'Apa ertinya Saya Menganut Islam??' by Fathi Yakan..